TOO MUCH THOUGHTS ON A PHONE CALL
Its 6.35 in the morning. I just woke up.
Had a very long and well-rested night.
I dreamt of him again.
Was rather disturbing, i think ...
I miss that voice and face.
Havent heard from him for quite some time now.
How is he doing? What have he been up to?
Guess I can answer all these qns with the pick of a phone.
He's just a phone call away.
But would that be a right move?
I'm contemplating hard on this one.
God knows there were so many times I wanted to dial those numbers.
Oh yeah ..
A rather freakish incident happened a few days back
I picked up the phone, dialled his number and waited for a ringing tone.
But, the house suddenly blacked-out.
Of all times, the electrical failure had to take place then.
And that was after I gathered enough courage to call him.
-Strange-
Was that a sign? Maybe I'm over-analysing it.
I'm gonna call him once my life is back in -normal- mode.
By that I mean
:::, after I
1) Get a job
2) Feel a little more accomplished
3) (theres some more but jus cant think right now)
Would that time frame take too long?
Would harm be done then?
If I dont call, would he think that I dont care.
And if I do call, would he be dissapointed that I've still not picked myself up?
What would we talk about?
Would he answer endless questions I have for him?
Would I like his answers?
Oh wait, would he even answer my phone call?
Still dunno what was going thru his head that last time we met.
THIS IS PARANOIA AT ITS BEST !!!
Certainly not a good way to start off a day.
Dissolve all thoughts lyds ....
